merry christmas

....that's it. more later.

love to all.

i go.

weekend update

brought to you by winter break.

so we had the jew party on friday night, which was oodles of kosher fun. actually it was just like us sitting around and screaming and eating all the gelt and latkes. then we decided it would be a good idea to run to this park near the house in the freezing cold and somehow i ended up screaming christmas carols at the top of my lungs while swinging. which is horrible, because i haven't sung in about 3 years. and then we got back to the house and i collapsed.

on saturday my friends and i went to pasadena to decorate some floats for the rose parade. i was dead on my feet for most of the day, and horribly cranky. that's all there is to say about that.

and then last night was the big excitement. i got to see avatar with one of my best friends and the guy i'm dating. and from what i did see of it, avatar is amazing. the scenary is beautiful and the acting was really intense and everything about it was so amazing. and i swear to god i heard some chords from titanic in there.

and yes, i did see most of the movie. not all, but like 3/4's.

so today i will hopefully be finishing college apps and finalizing plans to hang out with various people and eating more coffee ice cream then will ever be good for me.

more later. i go.

"your father just left us alone for two hours and internet access"

true qoute.

risa says burp. we are locked in my best friend's dad's office's conference room for the duration of 2 hours. we have excess amount of coca-cola and cookies and internet access. our lives are average.

this week was not bad, considering. there was indeed drama involving the guy my best friend broke up with like a month ago and my former friend and this girl i was never really friends with to begin with and my best friend and me . (say that three times fast) the girl i was never really friends with and i have been on the outs anyway, for the simple reason that she hates me because i am insecure.

(note: i am insecure. i am insecure about a lot of things. like my weight and my hair and my skin and my love life and everything else normal people are insecure about. do not hate me because i am insecure. people who do are stupid and inconsiderate. they do not know the half of my issues because i do not share my deep issues with people unless i know them veryveryveryvery well. (vivi nods) do not judge me because you don't know whats going on in my life because you are a bitch and can't see beyond your own issues which are too numerous to count anyways. i have a guy who likes me for me, i have friends who would do anything for me and i am almost okay with my life. just because your life sucks? do not take it out on me. and yes, i am obsessive, but there is a reason for that and i do not choose to share that with you. so shut the fuck up and sit down.)

(sorry about the rant.)

so we are here and in a second i will call this guy about this thing and yeah. blog about jew party later.

i go.

(neil gaiman is judging me)

welcome to school.

we're supposed to be working on this film lit project. i choose not to. i choose to blog and then text the guy i'm dating about how perfect we are for each other. and occasionally daydream about either guy of my dreams. or Neil Gaiman. and then occasionally type something on the Word document thats up.

my life is very productive.

one thing that greatly upsets me is when i have plans and they get canceled. this happened last night with this sleepover i've been planning since thanksgiving. they backed out. i got mad. am over it now, but for the record: if you have plans, KEEP THEM.

......i honestly have nothing more to say.

yo voy.

monday blues

monday has hit.

i've realized now that i don't really have anything interesting to talk about, besides grades and colleges and homework and the 21 year old i'm dating. (and i say dating with invisible qoutation marks, because we are not official yet. i mean, i think we are. so i say we're dating.)

i have a feeling (a wish, rather) that this will be a good week. and not just saying that because we have a grand total of 4 days left until break (thanks for reminding, jeff the yard duty and secret 4th love of my life). its just that now i've decided to believe in the power of postitive thinking, and thinking that this week is a good week will hopefully allow it to be a good week, despite the 2 tests and 1 project and 1 teacher to grovel to. its worked before. last week was a wonderful pleasant week. saw the guy of my dreams (note: seperate from loves of my life and guy i'm dating) twice, which is a record in of itself. and nothing too horrible happened. (note: seperate from drama, that happens all the time)

am now waiting for bio tutor, who will hopefully not be too crushed at the C i got on the last test, which will hopefully be brought up by the B i plan to get on this next test. must start studying, actually.

thinking of ways to spread the gospel of this on the interwebs. any suggestions?

so yesterday was my dear friend jynx's 18th birthday. in lieu of getting her an actual gift, i twitter-pestered Neil Gaiman until he said happy birthday to her. which hopefully he will not remember when i go to see him at UCLA in feburary. (please santa.....) jynx and i have a plan anyway to kidnap him and make him alternately ravish us and tell us lovely stories. one day, our plans will come to fruition.

dinner now. i go.

so this is kinda like the beginning of the world

i am not famous. yet. so sorry if you are Stumbling through the interwebs and you discover this, because i am not famous.

but i will be. or at least, i want to be.

actually, right now i want to be the fuck out of california. and in college. and with the love of my life.

(side note: there are actually three loves of my life.

1. the actual love of my life. he will never be mentioned again.

2. pS. the love of my life from school.

3. Neil Gaiman.)

so with one of the three, actually. but i'm not picky.

right now, i'm focused on working on this, because i am a procrastinator. also, focused on trying not to vomit because i've eaten like 3 things today, none of which were very good for me, except for the veggies. so i might not eat for the rest of the night. we'll see how that goes.

and so this is my life. welcome to my ramble. make yourself at home.

this might not be updated as frequently as, say, my twitter, but it will be updated. probably when i am trying to waste time before doing something. like homework. or college essays. or life.

i do that alot too.